Wow its been three weeks. So much has changed.

It was fun to take a walk with Olivia last night. The cool crisp air soothed the both of us. I think it might be a regular thing.

My dearest Olivia,

You are three weeks old today.

I can't believe it has been that long since you have been the center of our universe.

It really seems like just yesterday you were born. I wish time would go a bit more slowly. The days kind of seem like one long one. I love being your mother. I seeing you grow. You are my joy. Though it is a bit bittersweet seeing you grow because I want to keep you a tiny baby forever sometimes.

Your eyes are now grey. You've had your first manicure and have lost your belly button. Your smile still lights me up.

I love you forever and ever Olivia Bolivia.

Mama

My Dearest Niel,

Happy first Father's Day honey. I know we thought this day would never come with the struggles you and I faced to have Olivia. Although we are still trying to find a new normal as parents it is so wonderful to see you with our daughter. You are very sweet together.

Although you struggle with issues with losing your dad too early I hope the joy Olivia brings you helps to heal that sad part of your heart.

I love you very much and always will.

father's day

I've always thought the Father's Day was a fake holiday. But this morning I'm holding Olivia in my arms and watchin Sports Center. I don't know if its still fake, but its nice.

inspiration

Every morning when I leave for work and I kiss Olivia, I am inspired to work harder to succeed for her.

Honestly I have worked really hard this week and will continue to do so, because not only do I want Olivia and Ani to live comfortably but I want them to be proud of me. I know Ani is, since she is the president of my fan club, but O hasn't gotten her membership card or the autographed 5x7 photo yet.

Olivia had a rough night last night. As did the husband and I. We believe she cried for six hours straight. If that isn't Colic I don't know what is. She was a totally different baby. Pretty much nothing soothed her. We would get a few seconds of distraction from carrying her a certain way, singing to her, giving her all natural Colic medicine, switching rooms or giving her a Soothie. Thank fully Olivia was back to her happy self this morning around 3.

the lengths

It is funny the lengths that you will go for your baby. And I'm not talking all the way to White Plains. Yesterday during the fourth day of New York's HeatWave 2008 the AC unit died. So I get a text message that we need a new one.

Usually I'd say let's deal with a fan or two, but after getting home at 8pm I headed out to get an AC. I found a small one that would cool down one room. I carried it up stairs and started installing. Then the winds began. A thunderstorm blew through and stopped the instalation. At least it cooled the house significantly enough to make it comfy.

It was so comfy that around midnight the three of headed into the bedroom and she slept most of the night. Olivia woke up for a feeding and for a dirty diaper. But otherwise she gave mom and dad a well deserved good night sleep.